Anyhoo! To continue from where I last left off....... The week came and went!
End of blog..................lol
Going down memory lane, so many incidents happened. SB and I got so much closer as the months went. Resting in the fact and acknowledging finally that we were an item; exclusively but with a comma from his end.
His lease was about to expire at his apartment, to which I was kinda happy about. At least he won't be crossing paths with my arch rival! Funny when I look back now, because of her, I don't like any perfume or body spray that has a hint of vanilla in it! I remember that was her scent. I even had an aversion to her name! I purposely did not make friends with anyone that bears her name.
We always saw each other on our street, never spoke, never exchanged words, but dang the looks I got from her were like daggers!! I was never bothered, I just had the outlook that, "may the best lady win"!
He spent all his time with me so I had nothing to worry about. She had never met his folks, I had. She only knew a handful of his friends, I knew all his boys! They were regulars at my place. He was real sick a couple times and both times, I was there for him. Making his folks aware and whatnots.
Really, nothing to worry about when it came to her. Not trying to knock a sista, but she had nothing on me! Or so I thought!
The night before he moved to his new apartment in Ijebu Igbo, I spent it at his. As usual, we gisted till the wee hours of the night. See, that was one thing about our relationship. We were never short on gist! Lol..... I wonder what we always had to talk about but we did.
Me laying on his tummy as he was playing with my hair, we laughed, talked, argued points that did not concern us. Just having a good old fun time. We shared secrets we dared not share with another soul. As we were talking, I was rolling a thought in my head; is this "Love"? Gosh! What the hell? Where did that thought come from? He could tell my mind was wandering so he sat up and pulled me closer to him holding me in his arms and for no reason I can say, tears welled up in my eyes! I realized after 9 months of being with him, I found him to be my bestie! As in a real bestie! I didn't have to front with him. I could fart and be stupid with him and he was very accepting of who I was. Never judging me or trying to change me to be a specific way. He just took me as I was! WOW!!! New things here on my mind.......
I reached out to look at my phone to see what the time was...... 3:15am it said on the screen. I came back in his arms, my head buried in his chest, I could feel his heartbeat against my cheek. We stayed that way, neither of us talking for what seemed like forever. I knew he was not sleeping because he snores when he's sleeping. Save for the boombox playing his favorite mixed cd collection of Joe, Donnell Jones, Maxwell, Avant, Jaheim, MusiqSoulchild and the likes.... the room was quiet with neither of us sleeping.
He said something but it was barely a whisper so I turned to look in his face. There was a sliver of moonlight coming in through his window and it lit half of his face dimly. I asked him what he said and he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me long and urgent like he was trying to stop himself from repeating what he had said. He pulled back and looked in my eyes and said, "I Love you"! Breathless and completely blown away! Was he reading my mind!!! I am sure the look on my face was probably that of a flabbergasted idiot and before I could respond, he said I did not have to say it back or respond if I didn't want to.
Thing was, I was feeling the same way! I sat in between his legs, crossing mine like a kid's and pulled him closer to me. Right there told him I loved him equally. There! Finally, I was able to get those words outta my head and lips. He was about to talk, so I put my hand over his mouth and told him to shut up and not spoil the moment.
We made love tenderly and slowly.....almost like a punishment as we came over and over and over again!!! Oh my.....by the time we were spent and couldn't go further, the sun was already rising! No more sleeping for us as it was moving day for him! We took a shower together as we usually did and I went to my dorm to get food ready cause I knew he would be starving by the time he was all done. He had told me he made arrangements with a truck owner to help him move his things, so when I saw the truck pull up I knew it was time to head back to his place.
With food packed up, as I am walking to his place, I see my arch rival talking to the truck driver but I didn't pay attention to them until I got closer and bits of their conversation came floating to my ears. She placed her bag in the passenger seat and their conversation sounded like she knew the driver! More like the driver was her family's! More like what???
Anyways, I went into the compound, SB was bringing his things out and the driver was behind me coming to help him load up. I told him I'll be in the room. I didn't want to jump to conclusions or assume nothing. Like he liked to say, "assumption is the mother of fuck-ups". Hmmmm......okay oh!
He comes in a few minutes later to get the last of his things. I hand him his food and start to make my way out but turned around and asked, "so I guess she's helping you move abi?" He starts to respond and I told him to zip it! Not after the night we had and now this!? I shut the door so no one could hear us talking. I told him calmly, to leave me the fuck alone and have a nice life with his girl and stormed outta there!!!
I went to my dorm, picked up my journal and ran to my secret spot in the woods a few streets away. I had told him about the spot but not where it was so I knew even if he came looking for me, I won't be home! I just could not bear to see or talk to him..... I was do livid, thought my brain and heart would explode from the pain I was feeling.
I get to my spot......it was on a lone rock. In the middle of no where. There was a little grove in the rock that was like a seat. I sat down and cried myself silly! Poured my heart out in my journal. I wrote and wrote till no more words came to my head. All I could hear around me was birds chirping and leaves rustling. The quiet soothed my soul. I cried out to God to take my pain away.
It must have been like 2pm when I got to my spot but it was already dark when I realised I must have fallen asleep on the rock. Scared as crap to be all alone in the woods now that it was dark, I went back home to my dorm. Yetunde and Abbey were in the room and soon as they saw me, they started screaming at me and wandering about my whereabouts. Apparently, all the while I was gone, fracas had started in town as cult boys were at logger-heads again.
I was told we had to leave school first thing in the morning as lectures were on hold till it was safe to come back. Abbey said we were meant to leave already but they couldn't leave as they were all out looking for me. Said Segun was crazy worried, like I cared?! I told them what had happened as them two were my confidantes. They comforted me and made me feel better, telling me things will be okay. We just had to leave first thing in the morning.
Morning came, having barely slept a wink. Segun was out there waiting for our main door to be opened. He was explaining to me that I had to go home as school was not safe. U tuned him out and said I knew! Yetunde, Abbey and I made our way to Olowoporoku with Segun in our company. Abbey and his cousins had called for their father's driver to come pick them so I was hitching a ride back to Lagos with them. I was kinda glad I was going home as I wouldn't have to deal with seeing Segun or his girl!
This marked my first real heart-break and I sure didn't know how to deal with it so I was glad to be going home......
Pain.....sniff sniff.....
~Moby Sugar~
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